Evening, blog land. Today I went to school for a whopping two hours! I lost my voice right before I was supposed to present my project and called me dad to come get me. I might as well have just stayed at home anyway because I didn't even get called on to present. I'm feeling better now (as in, I don't want to pass out) after taking a two hour nap, but I still have a killer headache and sore throat. Perfect for valentines day, hm?
Among other things for breakfast I made oats topped with applesauce, 3 pieces of chopped candied ginger, and the dregs of my box of graham crackers. Note to self: buy more graham crackers.
Unpictured almonds for AM snack. For lunch, I considered just eating the sandwich I had packed for school but decided that I wanted something warmer. So, I made polenta. I topped it with steamed tofu, corn, and spinach and a bit of nooch. Yummy. I had it with carrots, a Voskos blueberry greek yogurt, and a Kashi bar.
I was so excited to find the yogurt at Whole Foods! They'd never had this brand before. I really wanted to try the fig kind that I saw on Megan's blog, but they only had blueberry, honey, and vanilla I think. I really liked it. It wasn't as sweet as most fruit on the bottom yogurts, and plus it had a really rich thick texture.
My afternoon snack was a bowl of PB puffins, raisins, and the last of my almonds. Arg I'm running out of all my favorite foods!
For dinner, me and my sister made veggie quiche cups. To do this, we sauteed 1/2 a chopped onion, 1 chopped red bell pepper, 1 small tomato, and 1/2 c chopped mushrooms. Then whisked together 8 eggs and 1/2 c mozarella cheese. We spooned the veggies into 12 greased muffin tins and filled them halfway with the egg mixture. Then baked at 350* for 20 minutes.
They were pretty good, but need more spice. I ate some of the leftover veggie filling with a handful of spinach and a slice of WW toast along with it.
Today I had to go see my ED doctor. I don't like her very much, partially because what she says to me makes no sense! A normal conversation with her goes like this: "Oh yes hello Kiki dear. I like that shirt, such a lovely.. mmm. Yes." I'm not sure how she wrote three books. Most of my visit was positive today. She showed me how much my bloodwork has improved, especially in the white blood cell and cholesterol areas. And plus, I've grown 3/4 inch since August! I'm 5' 8.25" now, yay!
The negative part came when she weighed me. I hate being weighed because for the longest time, how much I weighed dictated my mood for the day. If I'd gained or maintained weight, I was a failure. I haven't weighed myself in months because it's not healthy for me to beat myself up over a number. So the doctor weighed me on one of those special doctors' scales with the slide-y thing on it. The bottom slide goes by intervals of 50, and when I was at my lowest weight the bottom slide needed to be set at 50 because I was under 100 lbs. Today the scale was set at 50 lbs when I stepped on it, but my doctor changed it to 100 because I'm at a healthy weight now. This really upset me, I started panicking inside about how I'd let my weight get so out of control, I needed to lose weight again to get the bottom slide back at 50. I know this is irrational and stupid, I know I'd be a walking skeleton again, especially since I'm so tall. Eating has been difficult since I got back from my appointment though, and I can't convince myself that I'm doing the right thing by feeding myself. Ahh. Someone give me a slap in the face?
That's a wrap! Hope you all enjoy your Valentines day!