I'm going to be repeating myself by saying this, but thank you all for the support you gave me on my last post! It seriously makes my day a million times better just to read all the caring comments that are left for me. Plus it makes me crack up to here yesterday's event called the "enchilada incident". You girls gave me some wonderful advice about the situation with my dad. Unfortunately, it's really hard for me to "just talk" with my dad and tell him how uncomfortable he is making me. When I was first diagnosed with an., he didn't even want to believe that I really had an eating disorder and insisted that I had just lost muscle mass through ballet. After a while, he got used to the idea of me having a mental illness, but he still cannot grasp the concept of fearing food or gaining weight. I so wish that we could have a nice father-daughter conversation, but that's not going to happen, at least not now. Hopefully in the future though. Thanks again for the suggestions though.
For breakfast, I had an orange, apple + cheese sammie, and a bowl of PB&J oats!
By PB, I mean PB puffins :] My sister is a serial cereal eater. She gets on a health kick, or a chocolate kick, or a honey kick, and then buys cereal accordingly. When she bought the puffins, she was on a health kick, but she's now decided that puffins aren't sweet enough and it going to eating PB Cap'n Crunch instead! Oh well, more for me. And I used cran apple butter.
For lunch, I had a hummus and grilled pesto sammich, carrots, and a chocolate yogurt. The yogurt was sickly sweet, almost like a chocolate shake. Bleh. I made Baked Oatmeal Snack Bars from Kath Eats to go along with it. I subbed orange juice for 1/4 c of milk, almonds for walnuts, and dark chocolate chips for the fruit. Orange- chocolate- almond sounds good, right? Haha. It was not too great. I think that if you take away the natural sweetness from the dried fruit you need to add some white sugar/honey to compensate. So next time, I'll try the original recipe and hope it works out better.
And note to self: Parchment paper is not the same and wax paper. Because I used wax and it stuck, and I'm pretty sure that I acidentally ate a piece of wax paper on my bar!
I had ballet today, and it went somewhat better than it did on Saturday. I was in a space at the bar that isn't in front of a mirror, so I couldn't scrutinize myself at the bar. But then we went out in the center of the studio for jumps and adagios etc., and ED started pestering me. "Look. Your legs jiggle." I mostly ignored him by telling myself that ballerinas need strong legs to do all those lovely jumps. And women need some fat on them to... live healthily! Plus, I really don't even need to look in the mirror. I can feel whether my body is in the right place, and I can hear whether I'm with the music or not. So ED has no place in my studio. Mwaha!
For some after-class fuel I brought along a chocolate brownie pure bar. Oh my, it was so amazing! Very dense, moist, and fudgy like a brownie should be. It was better (and more filling) than a Larabar- don't kill me don't kill me! The wrapper says "Like a good mood in a wrapper" and I certainly felt very happy after eating this.
Dinner was another recipe from Kath Eats! Apple-Cheddar Fritatta (minus bacon). I love this recipe, it's not the egg and cheese overload that some fritattas and quiches are.
I also had a clemmie and a few small slices of multigrain baguette.
I am so not looking forward to school tomorrow. With exams and holidays, I've barely been to school lately, so it'll be a rude awakening to have to stay the whole day! Now, I'm going to enjoy the last hours of my mini-vacation and watch Gossip Girl! Good night, lovelies!
Edited to say: WHY was there no GG tonight? Now I have to wait another week for a new episode? This ruins my life.