Thursday, January 8, 2009

I Don't Want Any Sandwiches!

Last night I had a bizarre dream. I don't remember much of it, but I got mad at my dad for some reason. Then later in the day, he kept on trying to make it up to me by making me sandwiches. Most of them were like salami or something, so I was getting even more angry at him for making non-veggie friendly food!

Today (in reality) was actually sandwich free too. Instead of my usual PB sandwich at lunch, I made a Mediterranean quesadilla! I used 2 corn tortillas, 1/3 cup feta (my fav cheese), 1/2 cup spinach, 1/4 cup mashed chickpeas and some chopped red pepper. Not that exciting, but a yummy change of pace!

When I got home from school today, I was greeted with a nice surprise. I got my shirt from Etsy! For those of you who don't know, Etsy is a place to buy handmade goods. They kick mall clothes for sure!
And I don't actually have abnormally long armpit hair that falls out of my shirt. That's the hair that hangs on my back showing in the pic!

For din din, I made Lemon Spinach Cous Cous . It was super yummy, I love cous cous! I used more butter to make the cous cous (which was whole grain) moister and more pine nuts for some good fats.
Plus an unpictured hunk of french bread with butter and an apple.

And for my friend Lauren who's been having a rough time recently, I ate three (three!) dark chocolate raspberry cookies with peanut butter. I wasn't going to eat them when my mom bought them, even though they are dark chocolate, because of white flour. But I thought that ED has taken away so many important parts of Lauren's life, that I need to be strong for the both of us and have something unplanned to screw with ED.
It was too good. And I didn't feel guilty for a second. I've seen now that ED is real, it has really bad effects. I can't just drift through life, eating, but still holding onto my disorder. I don't want ED to mess with my life, or any of you girlies' lives, any longer. There is so much more meaning to life. I'm not sure what yet, by I know it's much more than restricting because there are other ways to feel better about yourself. And tonight, I decided to feel better about myself by indulging in three cookies with peanut butter. Haha! Get better, Lauren.

15 comments:

Sharon said...

Wow, awesome! I'm so happy for you!

And such an adorable shirt. Love it! I haven't bought anything from that site yet, but I so badly want to!

Burp~! said...

wow, what a positive post! I am feeling all the hope and encouragement from your strong will and determination! thanks, kiki~ you're younger than me, but still such an inspiration~

Jess :) said...

Love this post!!! What's going on with your friend??? I hope she gets better :( have a wonderful night and cute shirt+great foods! Those cookies look fab! Great job!!! So proud of you and you ARE such an inspiration :)

<3 jess :)

Peanut Butter and Jenny said...

GOOD FOR YOU GIRL! I am so proud :)!!

I love your shirt! Very artistic and fabulous. I didn't even notice until you said something but it totally looks like you have extremely long armpit hair .. TOOO FUNNY!

Have a fantastic night Kiki! You are doing so well in recovery and should be so happy with all the progress you are making!! Keep up the great work love<3

nightingale said...

Beautiful post. You are one very smart and beautiful young woman. Thank you for being such a great friend.

p.s. love the shirt!

Amira said...

that is such a great attitude to have!
The cookies with pb look incredibly good as does your beautiful quesadilla, yummo!

I love the shirt, yellow is one of my fav colors and the artwork on it is really pretty

Brooke said...

you had a great day! i am so proud of you for enjoying those cookies for your friend! that to me, is so inspirational! lauren is so lucky to have you as a friend :)

yummy quesadilla and couscous!

dollymixtures said...

Well done on the cookies. They look awesome, especially with peanut butter! You're right, we can't let ED take away anything more from us. We've seen what it can do now, and we need to stop it before it happens again to anyone else... :(

Feta is my fave cheese too :D
And nice shirt!
xxxxxx

Maya said...

that quessidila looks great! and the cous cous too!
cute shirt its so cool:)

nourishing mornings said...

cute shirt girly! and that couscous dish looks so great and so does your quessildila. what a positive post you are such an inspiration to me

aussirish said...

heya girlie,
really great post :) i loved the last part especially. its so positive and inspiring.your determination shines thru :) like id hate to have to deal with ed for the rest of my life so even now tho recvoery is hard itll be worth it for sure.
and the shirt is so cute hun!!
lunch looks nice.
hope you have a great friday,
love ya xxx

Lauren Danger said...

sweetheart, you are just the absolute bees knees.

Keep coming back to the blog. And i promise to keep in contact while i'm in IP. XXXXXX

Don't be stuck in recovery.
It's not even an option for you!!

Livin' It said...

Cute shirt!
I love your eats today, especially the quessidila.
Great job on eating the cookies too!

ChocolateCoveredVegan said...

Haha I never remember much of my dreams!

Dommi said...

You are such a great friend, girlie :]] I love that you were able to have a couple of cookies not only for your friend but for yourself. I think that you have set for her a wonderful example. You are so strong and resilient, Kiki... with an attitude like the one you just demonstrated, I know you can accomplish anything you set your mind to. I mean that, girlie... you are one amaazing chica :]

I just love your shirt, and I love even more that it is handmade. How cool!! I am definitely going to check out their website... thank you so much for sharing it!

xo