I edited this because I realized my points didn't add up. Again.
I had a really scary dream last night! Me, my parents and my sister were backing out of our driveway in our car and there was this guy who looked hobo-ish with a yellow car. My mom said "Oh, he looks nice!" So she made my sister get out of the car and help him wash him car. Meanwhile, the rest of us started driving around our neighborhood and like five minutes later we realized that nice looking hobo man could kidnap my sister. So we sped back up to my house and told my sister to get back in the car, she did, then nice hobo man became scary hobo man and jumped in front of the car and wouldn't let us pass! Then I woke up. I was very afraid that there was a hobo under my bed!
Ha, sorry for the randomness, again. It was just on my mind all day. Plus I only have one picture today and need to fill space.
But OH, I am so sick of the comments I get at school. They're not as bad as they used to be, but people keep commenting on how skinny I look. I'm almost at a healthy BMI now, but it seems like every day I get "Wow, gain some weight!" I even had one girl who I barely know pinch my arm and declare that I have no meat on my body. I'm not saying this is bad, but I now weight more than I ever had pre-ED. I have healthy bloodwork and vital signs, as well as a couple other indications of my health. I got the opposite of being called skinny when I was struggling with binging.
People are just so fixed on an ideal body, when no such thing exists. I am so sick of this. Everyone starts out programed to love their bodies, and respect the differences between their own body and other peoples'. Where in life does it go wrong? I have to find the best of both worlds. In between ED yelling at me and calling me "fat", and these people at school calling me too skinny. I just have to be content in the skin I'm in.
Anyway. For dinner tonight I made this recipe for orange almond couscous. I used whole wheat couscous, and added more almonds to add up the cals. My my, how the tables have turned. I now have to add calories to my food!
I wasn't overly impressed. I liked the almonds, but it wasn't to orange-y. Maybe I'll try it again with modifications.
Good night, ladies!