Pasta and an Epiphany

Well, it's finally Friday! I though it would never come. Today is the one weekday where I don't have somewhere to go.. no ballet, cello, orchestra, or therapy. I just chilled out and enjoyed my one day of relaxation. For a little while though, I was feeling nervous about being "lazy", or lazy by ED's standards anyway. I had a really really strong urge to exercise, and I was about to go for a run but then, I had my epiphany! I love that word. So anyway, my epiphany is: I don't have to exercise! That seems really lame and obvious now, but when I was in ED-freak out mode, as I like to call it, it wasn't as clear as that. I was thinking that I would be a failure, a fat failure, I'd be letting myself down if I didn't exercise. Then I thought "No. This is ridiculous. I will not be a better person if I exercise!" Life goes on. Why should I waste my time doing exercise I don't even need? By the way, this isn't supposed to sound like good advice. It's more to convince myself that I did the right thing. So yes, it was just kind of a big step for me to realize this. It pales in comparison to other people on here though.

Onto the pasta! Breakfast, lunch, and snack were boring, food-wise. I was thinking about dinner all day though. My mom made me use white pasta to use up what we had in the pantry. It's my #1 fear food, I think. So anyway, I was making it, and making deals with myself about how much of it I would eat. Then I sat down to dinner, starting eating, and you know what? It tasted good. So I ate all of it! A HA! I win ED. Isn't that what normal eating is all about? Eating how much you want of what tastes good? I think so. It was another one of those recipes written on an index card (I think it was from my aunt?) that I modified. Here it is!

Sweet and Sour Spirals

Ingredients:
Sweet and sour sauce-

1. 1 tbs. + 1 tsp. ketchup
2. 1 tbs. + 1 tsp. sugar
3. 1 tbs. + 1 tsp. vinegar
4. 1 tsp. soy sauce
5. 1/2 tbs. cornstarch
6. 1/4 c. orange juice (original recipe called for pineapple juice)
7. 1/2 tsp. oil
   

Everything else:

1. 4 oz. (1 c. dry) spiral pasta, like gemilli or rotini
2. 1 1/2 c. frozen carrots
3. 1 1/4 cups sugar snap peas
4. 1 tbs. fresh cilantro

Directions:

1. To make the sauce: Combine the cornstarch with the juice. Heat oil in small saucepan. Add juice mixure and all other ingredients. Cook over medium heat until thickened.
2. Cook pasta according to package directions. Drain well.
3. In a large skillet, heat sauce for 2-3 minutes. Add vegetables and cook 2-3 more minutes. Add pasta, and cook 3-5 minutes. Stir in cilantro just before serving.

In the pan:

Served with a quorn cutlet cooked in olive oil, seasoned w/ cumin, oregano and garlic:
Thinking about it, I really needed another carb with it. I'll make up for it tonight with more graham crackers fo' sho'. Peace out.